Life

So i wrote a poem which is what my title is for so here it goes.

Life

this thing we call life what dose it mean. From the day you are born to the day you die. what are you expected to do. Should you go and just not care or make every thing serious. Were you meant to be famous or let life die you down. Should you let love take on a crazy ride, or never let anyone in your life, and keep your feelings in. This thing we call life what dose it mean. When the sun rises and sets, Dose it mean that life is getting shorter or that you have lived a little bit longer. Life......... what dose it mean. when you find out could you please call me.

So how was it tell me the truth. was it good, great , of horrible. just tell me i can take it. i also have another poem that's very personal.

Huge/little Girl

I Seem so strong, and unstoppable. So not afraid of life. You see a girl who doesn't care what you say about her weight, or the fact that she has stretch marks on her arms. But if you knew the things i went through in my whole life. If you knew how sensitive i am, and how i cry my self to sleep every night. or how i thought about killing my self everyday for the last 2 years. If you knew that every time i see you with your pretty, happy, perfect life i want to be you. If you knew that i was a fragile little girl trying to find her way back home would you still take shots at my heart.

Well thats them tell me what you think ..... if there is even any one out there

Depression

So it like offical i'm going in to a depression again. idk  what to do i dont like going out side i miss my friends and i am hating life right now. i mena dont get my wron gim not going to kill myself. i not that depressed. i just wish i could be a normal teenager like my friends , im sure they havent even went through half the shit i have went through in this last pass year.  i just guess i feel lonley and i will say that i need to around alot of peopl eor i feel left out an dun loved and thats how i feel right now! so i dotn know well lets change the subject. well today i got my first pay check! so thats that high lighof my day. well im to sad to write any thing else bye bye

The Only Exception

Well it's officially i have really seen how people can be! I'M SO PISSED, but this time i wont use names made that mistake already. but i just love people say they want to hang out with you but make other plans. i just hate it some times i wish i could go back in time and change who i become friends with cause I'm really starting to not  like some of my friends. well i should say ex- friends. wow i just wish this whole month would just be over I'm so tired of feeling like nobody is out there..... but I'm going to take a wild guess and say that there is probably  no body out there to listen to me. well now that I'm done with that part of my blog i would like to explain my title. Well I'm in love with paramore's new song called  The Only Exception, and i cant get it out of my head and every time i listen to it i think about my friend Erin because not in a weird way but like she is the only real friend that i have ever really had, i mean don't get me wrong i have come across some really good friends but i would have to say she is truly my best friend . so yeah that's that but what else should i talk about. hummmmm. well i don't know but i mean i could Say a lot of stuff but that would get I'm onto a WHOLE LOT of drama that i don't need right now .well  now that we are talking about drama i want to talk abotu the person drama off of  Fantasy factor . i love that guy so much hehehe!!! i love his shirts too i plan to get one he is just the cutest thing to me.

      Well i don't know what else to say but that my life sucks ass! because i have nothing to do this summer but work and watch my brother and sister, but i don't have a choice so yeah its true my life dose suck. and i have body to sure my horrible life with because all my friends are having fun without me but can u blame them i mean i wouldn't want to hang out with a life-less person either

Goals Of The summer

Well i have decided to make a list of my summer goal.. they are all the things i want to do before the summer is over so here it gose

• I want to at least hang out with 2 of my  friends before the summer is over
• Post a video of me singing so i can see is people actual think im a good singer
• Write a poem that actual means alot to me and to the peopel around me
• To express my feeling to my mom
• run a 5k race!

Well thats my goals for right now im sure there will be more but thats all i have right now i just dont know what  else i want right now. i miss my friends so much i hate this part when i grow apart from them but i cant really change it. im starting to think that nobody really cares about me but i coudl just be in one of my depressed modes. i really miss Lily, alison, and emily at these moments they always knew how to cheer me up. i think i will get off now

4th and monday after

well its the monday after the 4th. it was a fun 4th i went to the beach and bbq ed , and was fireworks then had some cupcakes and some cake.nothings really happened since i talked to u the last time. i really miss my friends so much ... i dotn what else to do kinda feel like dying cause im so tired and i miss my friends and dotn seem to want to hang out with me

Ms.bieber, working woman, the things i am

ok so its been awhile since i have been on here so this is what u have missed, i have went to the jujstin bieber concert so awsome, i got a necklace with his name on it a t-shirt a bag, a picture and a glow stick with his name. see how much i love him. im still a working woman. its not as bad as it was i,m starting to love it. i really miss seeing my best friends ever.... and i kinda miss school but not engough to go back. i cant wait to start volleyball in august i hope i make the team. i cant wit until high school. i miss reading so im going to get me some books. my new fave song now is never say never by justin bieber and jaden smith it is so good and jaden is rapping and i like the video!!! umm what else can i say1 im getting another piercing in my ear. i hope to get nosed pierced next year. well got to go look at houses in plymouth im moving back baby so talk to u next time when i tell u about m y horrible fun terrible happy summer